Hi, I've been feeling awful lately as well, I was advised to see another doctor for second opinion and he changed my medication (since last night), he said if there is no obvious change in two-three weeks medicine should be changed. Maybe you can try the same, because IF it works it will change your hole perspective, and you will be able to find a way out of situations that you don't see now.

''In fact my pills I discovered has cameras, tracking chips, and nanobots to release poison.'' - You know when I was teenager I believe that I am constantly observed, I even believed that people can here my thoughts and I have NO privacy at all. While I felt this with my hole being only the little part of my brain telling me it is not true helped me overcome it. After all if they want to observe I'll let them!

I can't put myself in your shoes, so I hope I haven't offended you in any way. I'm just sharing personal experience and I hope you find a way to feel better.

P.S. I think doctors often try to treat symptoms. I think if you find a way to help yourself with the depression you will be able to stop blaming yourself, understand why you are so scared and overcome it. Also I don't see how your art (as bad as it can be), can possibly cause someone elses bussines to shut down! Whatever the reason it is the owners decision.