Hi Elbie,

Are you asking me if i will feel abandoned if I have to see my t less often? I guess I would not feel abandoned by my t, since it's not her fault that the hospital is letting her go. But i would have a very difficult time having to see her only half as much as I'm used to. I've always had a very tough time dealing with her vacations, and having to miss sessions. Two sessions per month doesn't feel like enough time to even hold onto the connection, much less keep the therapy work tied together and moving forward. But. . .I don't know. I've been seeing this t for a long time (10+ years). Maybe it's time i started paring down. My issues are not completely resolved yet though, and i don't want to!

I have no close friends at all in 3D life, not even anybody I would call a friend. Nobody I socialize with. No one who asks me to go shopping or to a movie. All i have is my h and my t -- and my mother-in-law. But I can't talk to my mil about my emotional/mental issues. My therapy serves an important purpose for me, and having to reduce by half is going to be difficult. I always have so many concerns and questions, and things that i could not talk to friends about, even if i had any. I once had a close friend i confided in, who tried to be like a therapist to me, and the friendship ended horribly and left me emotionally scarred and now terrified to get close to anybody else.

I'm sorry for sounding whiny. I just don't know what to do.