Thanks for your replies. AmandaLouise, I can see how it would come across that way but I'm really not doing any weird research or anything. About a year ago I was told I dissociate. I didn't even have a clue what that meant back then. After reading about it, denying it, reading more (and talking with my therapist) I accepted that I do have depersonalization/derealization. Now it seems my diagnosis is headed more into the DID or DDNOS category. I was so adamant for so long that there was no way I had anything like that (my knowledge of DID came from watching Sybil). But the more I read about it the more I think it fits... I'm not trying to diagnose myself I just think its a scary process to go through- for me anyways even to consider it as a possibility- that I just wanted to hear how others came to accept it.