I know this sounds totally bizarre, but I used to worry the police could see through me and know I was a bad person (I've never done anything in my life remotely worthy of being considered a "bad guy" by the popo; however, my esteem was so incredibly low - actually non-existant, I FELT as if I didn't belong in the world. And they knew it).

Uch. I am sooo incredibly embarrassed But it's the truth.