Alright this is sort of embarrasing, well no it's REALLy embarrasing.
I was reading through the Abuse thing and I wanted to ask a question. Alright, I'm a male mid-late teens and I consider myself a pedophile. I'm not proud of that and I don't mean to offend any of the people who were abused. It started when I was around 14, I know too young to be a pedophile but that's when it did. I was looking for adul-straight porn and came upon some child porn of people about my age and a little younger. And of course this intruiged me and I looked for more. It was VERY easy to find, and I've been hooked ever since. I knew it was wrong then but I think my own excuse to myself was that they were about my age the girls I was looking at. But then I was 15, 16, and now 17 and I'm ashamed to say that I still feel like I'm addicted to child pornography. I know this must sound sick to you, and it is to me. I would never defend it. I always thought I would just grow out of it that it was a phase. I never plan on touching a child, trust me. BTW please don't report me to the FBI, =) I don't store anything on my harddrive since I'm paranoid and ashamed. I think it's sick, I know I only get sexual pleasure from it I'm not going to act like I love young kids and would want to have a relation with them etc. like I would with an adult. Also I consider myself bi-sexual and am interested in people my age mainly female. Like I never look at a kid in the real world and find them sexually attractive. I don't know it's like fantasy. I feel stupid for posting this hope the FBI doesn't show up or something at my front door. So yeah my questions are do you believe i'll grow out of this or would I need a psychologist? Please no comments like "Your sick" "get out of here" if you don't like what I wrote don't respond.