I don't think you understand. No matter how much I accept what happened, it doesn't mean tehre is an escape from it. No matter how much I accept that this happened and I have to just move on, there is always the imminent future threat of it all happening again. The doctors still try to "check up" on me. They still send social workers around to my house. They still threaten to have me put on compulsory community treatment, and I think most of the reason that I've escape that so far is because I know how the law works (and can get my lawyer friends to represent me for free). I'm sure if I were more of a layperson, I'd already be back on the forced druggings. No amount of acceptance or success of self-care or whatever has changed that. I can't imagine it will for a very long time.