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fishsandwich · May 22, 2012, 01:57 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

perhaps my being ok with it is the same reason i am the way i am.

or are we talking about socially weird or clinically abnormal?

i am both. i realize my place is in both. i take both as being just me rather than something that was added on through ill/bad mental health. probably because i have no life to look back on and say "i was once like this". i dont have that.

on another forum someone said when they get delusional or have hallucinations they keep it inside and withdrawal and a family member ends up taking them somewhere or something.
i told them its the opposite for me. i said i show it outward. i end up going out in public with it and police or someone random person reports me.

I know I'm a weird angry *****, I'm OK with that.

I'm complaining about things like the diagnosis/compulsory treatment being registered against my criminal record. And my degree classification (ie. final result) being embarrassingly low because they factored in all the exams I "failed" (couldn't sit) whilst detained for compulsory treatment. And having to sue the university to keep my place because they didn't want psychotics there. And still having social workers show up at my house with an eye to drugging me. And basically not being able to get normal medical care because it always comes back to being blamed on my psych diagnosis (seriously, now everything from eye problems to broken bones = caused by the crazy).