I had this really weird session and I was all over the place. We didn't get around to following up on last weeks session.

I am a bit "off" as I am going thru serious benzo withdrawal. So today was yet another discussion where he wavered back and forth between being supportive of my decision to go med-free and wanting to turn me into pdoc. I really need him to just be supportive. He told me he noticed that he did not have a release to talk to pdoc in my folder. (Weird, that never stopped him before...I always just assumed I had signed a release.) I am trying really hard to be honest about my head and my moods, but I have to hold back because if he decides it's an emergency he will go to pdoc without my consent. I know he's thought about it...why else would he go fishing for a consent form. I know he can't promise me he won't go over my head, but I at least wanted him to promise he would tell me before he did it...no such luck.

And he says he supports me, then he talks about trying different meds when I am fully titrated off of what I am on. WTF?? What part of med-free does he not understand?

arg. At the end of the session...when I was giving him my check this happens:
T: I have one more important thing to talk about before you leave.
Me: k
T: I think you're a "hot sh&t"
Me: ugh, huh??
T: I love your sarcasm and sense of humor. Can you handle me liking this about you?
Me: yea. I can handle that.

WTF??? Why was this important?