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Originally Posted by SoupDragon
T offered me an extra session and I went. I thought it was an opportunity to at last show emotions wtih him, I had been crying all over the place - but when I was with him nothing came. [...] When I left and was putting my shoes on, I head his meditation bell .
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Soup I don't know what a meditation bell is, but I remember T1 in the first year - it would seem as if she could hardly keep her eyes open - I was very offended ("am I boring you??" was never far from the tip of my tongue, I am amazed that i never said it)...
after 3 yrs, when we knew each other well, i brought that up and she remembered it perfectly. She told me that it was because i was so closed; the effort of concentrating so much, trying so hard to pry something out of me for an hour straight, was just exhausting. It may be that yr T was the opposite of cleansing himself, perhaps he cares a lot and gave his best effort to help you when you are so tightly closed.
(((((((((((((( sd )))))))))))) I hope you find your peace soon.
