It's been going over and over in my head trying to work out why she would say this.

Basically I turn up very early to my appointments because I rely on buses, that are never on time, sometimes don't even turn up at all, and they don't even come that often on the actual timetables anyway, so it's either I turn up very early to my appointments, or very late.

My therapist knows I rely on buses. She has been late to every single one of my appointments, which I'm counting now either the 4th or 5th, I'm not entirely sure.

Yesterday she tells me as we finish off my appointment something about telling me I should be late for a change or something.

I am so confused. I don't want to be late. I'm keen to recover, and if I'm late, I just have to be very very late, and then she would be p*ssed off with ME, like I get p*ssed off with her when she's late.

Why would she encourage this? Is this a SKILL I'm supposed to learn or something?