Soup, I am so sorry for the trials you're facing now. Life can be so tough sometimes. But one thing I'd like to mention about your T contacting you. I think it's part of the boundaries required for therapists not to contact their clients on their own initiative. I can imagine how frustrating that might be if I were a T. I would be interested and curious how a client is doing but it does cross therapeutic boundaries for them to make the first move.

I'm sure your T cares deeply. I am sure he's not relieved that he hasn't heard from you. The relationship we have with our therapists is different than with friends. The same 'rules' do not apply. Please don't compare his actions to what you'd expect from a friend. What they do is different, not less. He's there for you. Make contact. ((((((hugs))))))