Well doggiedo, it has only been two years and from what you discribe on your about me, you probably took awhile to just get over the shock of it and you are just in the grieving stage. I think it is normal to miss him in a way, but you also miss the dream of marriage and love, AND EVEN HAVING CHILDREN TOO.

The bottom line is that he doesnt want children and that type ususally makes a poor parent anyway. Even though he may be marrying some woman who has children, he is still who he is and it doesn't mean he all of a sudden changed because of this woman, he is still the same person, and he may do to her as he did to you. Sometimes men who DONT want children, need to be the child or center of attention and they can be drawn away if they somehow gain more attention. That never means that there was anything wrong with you, often people seem to think that, but that is not always the case. And just because he is getting married, doesn't mean he is better off or the woman he marries is getting YOUR MAN OR PRIZE.

It is ok to grieve, but please make efforts to find someone who can better meet YOUR needs. There are nice men out there that also like children and are lonely as well.

So what you are feeling is normal, don't feel guilty or that what you feel is wrong at all. You have a right to feel and be validated, you have loss, it needs to be morned and can be missed.

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes