Hi marjique and welcome to PC. You will find you are not alone in how you feel. I know exact ally how you feel. I was diagnosed with severe depression in 2000 and my life was pretty much as you described for the longest time. Even now I find I still have those "dark" times from time to time - in fact I am in one now Keep working with the therapy and share as much or as little as you want here. There are many great people on here.