You sound just like me when I hit 21 . It's a common age for this disorder to start to shine thru due to stress and other factors that can start around this age. There is so much help out there for you! Find a GOOD doctor. Not a therapist but a doctor that perscribes medication. It's important to be stable before addressing any issues. If you don't care for the first doctor that you see, fire him/her and see another one. Keep refering to online for information on the disorder and the drugs as well. Lots of good stuff out there. Most importantly, take one day at a time and be patient with yourself. Remember your not alone. I hope you feel better soon.

~Lia