That's ok, I can understand the confusion. It's hard for everyone involved I think. Yes, his wedding is soon so maybe that's a trigger for me. I know I should stop making an attempt to talk to him, via AIM messenger and text. Will that make it easier, idk.

I wonder if I should be single to try and get past this on my own. I wonder if it's fair to my current bf. I haven't been"feeling it" lately but I think thats normal to a point. Given y background and what I'm currently dealing with, it makes sense that I want to withdraw a little from my current relationship. I just also want to be careful I don't check out of my current relationship either, which I also kinda feel like im doing.