I think this is a huge insight right here. You're able to see that there are feelings, and that there is something blocking them. Really, this is huge! Now that you have the DESIRE to remove the block, it will happen. I believe that the feelings want to come out, that that is the natural state of things. It's the block that is not normal. I truly believe if you want that block gone, it will. It's probably in the unconscious part of your mind, and that can take a while to get the message from your conscious mind that you want to change the way you operate.

You've made so much progress lately! I hope you can feel good about it. Keep working on this, with or without T. She can certainly help speed this up, but you can also work it on your own until you can see her. I hope you get to see her soon!

ETA - It was your unconscious mind that created the block in the first place, for self-preservation. Remember that you created it, and you can take it down. You have the power.