You should not only seek a psychologist, but a pdoc, you appear to REALLY need professional help with this.
So I am advising you to make your next step to a mental health professional's doorstep.

BTW I do not think the FBI is going to come after you just for posting here, so I wouldn't work myself up over that, just contact a therapist or pdoc about this before it gets really out of hand. Lots of luck.

DE

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SOLON