I wish i could tell you what you need to do... But i cant i just wanted to say i understand what you are saying and that spot where you feel like everything is on there side and YES you are not being helh there but you are stuck.. AND it doesnt have anything to do with you wanting to staying or the stuff you have it comes down to... You cant you dont have anyone and/or anywhere to go to and what go to a shelter and live with people you dont know.... IT IS NOT THAT EASY... I am 25 i have been with a man for 8 years and he has NEVER but his hands on me but sometimes it would be better if he would have.. See I am on ssi and me and him have 2 kids together and the truth is what i get a mounth is a joke there is NO way i could do it even with me getting everything i can from the state to ...and he knows it cause he says all the time that i would loss my kids for not being able to pay for housing and food for them and when he gets them i will never see them and the F***** up thing is even tho he NEVER brings them to there doc apointments and doesnt do ANYTHING with them because he works he says.. he is right i would lose them so i stay everyday hating my life and wanting to die!!!! and even tho your story is not the same i do understand just because you have stayed DOESNT mean you wanted to