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May 23, 2012, 11:55 AM
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Member Since: May 2012
Posts: 2
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I FEEL SO LOST, I HAVE A GOOD FAMILY. OF COURSE WE HAVE OUR PROBLEMS... BUT HERE LATELY I FEEL LIKE I HAVE FALLING INTO THE HUGE BLACK HOLE, SO DEEP I CANT PULL OUT OF IT. I DONT KNOW IF THE PROBLEM IS BECAUSE I TAKE CARE OF MY SICK DAD, WHO HAS MANY HEALTH PROBLEMS AND I HAVE ALREADY LOST MY MOM. SHE WAS THE ROCK THAT HELD US ALL TOGETHER, BUT I THINK HE DROVE HER CRAZY!! TO A POINT SHE COULDNT EVEN FIGHT HER OWN ILLNESS. SHE HAD CANCER AND HE ISNT A VERY NICE MAN. I LOVE MY DAD BUT, I DONT RESPECT HIM. THAT MAY SOUND HARSH BUT IT IS TRUE. AND NOW I AM HIS CARE GIVER AND I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING TO HARM HIM... MATTER OF FACT I HAVE LOST EVERYTHING TO KEEP HIM ALIVE. BUT ASIDE FROM ALL OF THAT ...MY REASON FOR NOT WANTING TO LIVE ANYMORE IS THAT I AM ALWAYS TIRED, I SLEEP BUT I NEVER FEEL RESTED, MY BODY HURTS, AND I AM ONLY 36 YRS OLD I SHOULD BE IN MY PRIME. I HAVE TWO GREAT DAUGHTERS AND A LOVING HUSBAND THAT I KNOW LOVES ME IT IS JUST HE HAS A HARD TIME SHOWING HIS FEELINGS AND I GUESS THAT HURTS ME SOMETIMES. AND THE GIRLS ARE GROWING UP AND I FEEL LIKE I HAVE NO ONE ANYMORE. SO I THINK WELL GET UR BUTT UP AND FILL IN THAT TIME WITH SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE.... I JUST DONT HAVE THE ENERGY OR THE ABILITY TO THINK STRAIGHT HALF THE TIME. I NEED HELP I CANT KEEP PUTTING MY FAMILY THREW THIS. AND I CANT KEEP DOING IT EITHER. WHERE WE LIVE THERE IS NOT A GOOD DR. TO HELP WITH THESE PROBLEMS. AND I CAN AFFORD TO DRIVE A LONG WAY OFF ....SO I DONT SEE MUCH ELSE LEFT TO DO........DO YOU?
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