My team apologized for yesterday so I feel like I need to stop blaming myself so much. I keep getting images in my head of my psychiatrists face. He was terrified. I didn't understand why, but then I think that psychiatrists don't really deal with stuff like that, they spend a lot of time "behind a desk". If you know what I mean. I'm starting to put little pieces together, like his facial expression, and how I got from point A to point B.