Yesterday was awful. I was hurt and lonely and crying. This morning I got numbed up by my morning meds, which I omitted yesterday. Ritalin and Neurontin - they numb me. I get a good deal of mental pain relief from these meds.

(((Triciadrich))) You sound so very much like me. Those same words go through my head. Isn't it so hard to compare how life was with how life is. Very tough to consider. Like you, I ponder and ponder.