Ive been afraid that I'll have to go on disability in a few years for similar reasons. My mother and I are waiting to see if my ability to function gets better. I think disability depends on what country you live in.

I'm slowly trying to accept that I might need it. I'm not diagnosed with anything with psychosis as a symptom yet, but my psychosis does seem to be a chronic issue, with periods of remission of hallucinations and delusions depending on my medication. Even in remission though, I still don't really function. Depending, I might be diagnosed with something within a month or so. Still need to do neurological testing, apparently.

I've found it really comforting to think that even if I do go on disability, I might be able to do some volunteer work to help others with mental stuff. I'll also still be able to do freelance art, since I don't even make enough with that to have to report it to the IRS. It feels bad, yeah, but there are other things I can do to feel good about myself besides working a paying job.

This might take a while to post, since I'm new, but I really hope things start looking up soon, Newtus.