Broke down and sent this email to T...I feel so weak:

I hope you realize I'm trying not to breach boundaries or be a pest because I want to put that part of myself behind me. I want to be healthy and I recognize I'm healthier, but I've realized recently I still have a long way to go; even while you keep asking me if I realize how well I'm doing.

There are several things putting me in the place I am right now, which feels like going backwards. While I anticipated this as I moved further into my issues, it didn't prepare me for what it entails.
1. Three large, mundane work projects due next week. At the pace I am going, I will have no holiday weekend to rest and recover (I'm spending it alone anyway).
2. Because these tasks are mundane, they give me a lot of time to think, reflect, pray, and think some more.
3. I managed to mess up our new website Monday. I haven't learned the content management system well enough to make the change *boss* asked me to make. While he took it in stride, he managed to embarrass me in front of my coworkers by telling the management team during a meeting, "Chopin broke it." (It's fixed now)
4. I finished the section of Boundaries dealing with the laws and some of it really bothered me.
5. My friend A is very depressed and confessed to me she's been having suicidal thoughts and swore me to secrecy.
6. I've worked through something in the past few days with the help of my forum friends. I realize I'm stuck in an area and need help.
7. All of the above and I'm alone.

Please can we not skip a week any more in my therapy unless one of us is sick or on vacation? Thanks for scheduling so far out last time to try to prevent this in the future.
I'm sorry if I'm bothering you.
Chopin