I've felt just like you once about my T... I cut back on sessions which of course added to the distance and indifference I was feeling about T... I blamed T for it...said it wasn't great...it wasn't helping...etc... Then one week I told him that I quit. He convinced me to comeback and have a final session...which was helpful...in someways he was honest about things that he never said to me before... He said lots of things some helpful some honest to point of sort of hurting... But said if I wanted to come back he would be around...

Months went by and I realized that I was avoiding getting to close to him... that I was pushing him away because I didn't want to let anyone get that close to let anyone mean too much... to be too important to me... and because we had just started on a subject that was totally different and it (the whole T thing ) was feeling like too much and panic alarms of "get out why you can" were going off in my head...

Guess what nothing got better on its own...all the reasons I went to T in first place (that hadn't been resolved) were still there... I ended up calling him and waiting a while to get an appt to go back...

All of that pain could have been avoided if I could have just went to him and said for some reason I feel like I have to keep you at a distance.... I don't want to like you... I don't want you to mean anything to me... and I prefered not to see you again.

I think my T could have helped me deal with all of that without having wasted months... on the slow fade...the I quit... the I need to come back but you have no openings... and the awkard... I'm back...help me reconnect things..

My point in sharing is just so you could ask yourself if there are any underlying reasons... or think of what is possible to discuss with your T....