Readytostop - thanks for posting that. I've been feeling like I needed to pull back from T, to keep myself from getting hurt. I've had a lot of losses in the last few months and that part of me that protects me was screaming, "back up, back up! Don't get more attached! He'll just hurt you like all those others have!"

I told that to T this week and we had what I think was our best session yet. I've realized now that it's really okay to be attached to him until I don't need to be anymore. That may be a long time, it may not. He's told me repeatedly that he's in this with me and he's not going anywhere. I need to trust that and let him help me work through the things I started him seeing him for in the first place.