There is a block. In trying to figure out what the desires were related to T (holding or touching me in some way so I can cry), I think I discovered the answer. I want the block gone. I want to access the feelings. I have no idea how.

And it's a week before I see T. Of course I've received no call or email from her. There is almost never a cancellation and if there was, she probably didn't let the office staff know that I wanted the slot. She's still pretty forgetful.