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Originally Posted by yang0868
I called sis up and asked her if I could remove them from the situation and she consented. I just wanted to protect the kids because they are extremely vulnerable. When it comes to me, I couldn't give a damn. I think this troubles T.
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This is an extraordinary thing that you did for your sister's kids.
I have had a kind of passive death wish off and on over the past 20 years. Sometimes it's active too. I see it as a sign of defeat, of not wanting to trudge through the same **** day in and day out.
At the same time, a decision long ago to change careers helped to pull me out of a years-long severe depression (amongst other interventions). Finding a sense of purpose in life, no matter how small, is important. I hope that you were able to derive some sense of purpose from the protective, nurturing role you clearly played for your sister's kids.