Thank you all very much, is so hard to express the way you really feel ,on PC site has been grate and very good on a learning experiences and very very good wisdom from all ,I look up to any advise good or bad, you all really showed me to think both sides, when it was always mostly 1 sided.We went to marriage counseling Tuesday, believe it or not I did open up my feelings an got teary eyed, I made my wife in tears really hurt me bad to see her like that, I felt so destroyed for doing that when she got upset, afterwards I believe it really helped myself especial, not to sound conceded or ****, I have been so freaken miserable ,I actually felt alot better afterwords,we talk short on the way home was ok not bad,as we got home we had family counseling as well wow both at the same day really set things in a spinning,but in a forward motion to me that was much needed in my part. Family counseling was grate went very well myself and my wife was tight together on issues same feelings agreed on everything was real nice to be on same page,good positive feelings for both us after are marriage counseling.