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Would you EVER, even if he wasn't working, even THINK of saying those things to him? I doubt it. That's called ABUSE. People are not supposed to verbally and emotionally abuse each other -- especially if they SAY they "care" for you. And if you've been putting up with this for years, you definitely have some self-esteem issues my dear.
Would you be able to afford some sessions with a therapist? It would surely do you a lot of good. I'm sure not working has you depressed, but the fact that you've been depressed for years saying something. You need some help with this depression and a good therapist would be able to help you.
If you cannot afford a therapist, at LEAST talk to your doctor. As you well know, he can put you on an antidepressant, at least for awhile until your SSD comes thru and you can get to a therapist. No one wants to take medications, but believe me they DO help. I've been depressed since I was a child, and even tho I've gone thru therapy I still needed an A/D and have been on one for years -- and probably will be until I die. LOL Please get some help -- you don't need to live like this.
And YES -- cut the ties. Don't subject yourself to this abuse any longer. He won't stop -- he hasn't in all these years. God bless and take care of YOU. Hugs, Lee
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