Well, that describes me pretty perfectly, so you're not alone. Sometimes it feels a little less passive, however, even in the best moments, the passive wish is there. I'm working on it though. Life is slowly getting better. I can't imagine not feeling this way...but who knows. That's the most positive I've been able to be about life in a long time. I'm so lucky T's put up with me long enough to get me to this point. Hopefully she's willing to put up with me for a bit longer. I am a bit of a slow mover!