I've spent most of the day in bed -0 depressed. My S.O. told me I'm just a lazy person laying on her behind when I could be out there working. He may very well be right. I condemn myself mercilessly.

However, I don't think I want anymore unsolicited condemnation from him. This is radical, but - I don't think I want to ever again here anything from him. He has abused me for years.