I feel real bad lousy, I lost another freind. He passed on yesterday He lived in my old neighborhood.(so do about 7 other ppl.)so many others are very sick , when first met it wasn't that way. I feel like self abuse What would that solve anyway. but I just feel numb, I hate this I lost too many freinds I stoped counting at 45 this is what me and some ppl. did after dinner. count who died since they been here its so sad cause sombody else counted for me I'm just real numish rite about nowI'm going to sleep soon Thanks