No Perna my great deal of meaning is the actions they took- Not the damn card. the damn card has something to do with it ----
I am sorry that I also am aware that this has sprung up something of things my mother would do- take something I liked/disliked use it against me in some form to hurt me and to discard my feelings/emotions about it. Then to be ignored on an issue. <- I know many of you will read into that as if well she is just displacing things- no actually his mother has continued to do this with the dog issue as well- which Hankster is the only one that probably knows what I am talking about there. Get told that the dog was not that bad; basically it is my fault that he is gone and whatever else- I don't appreciate people telling me how to feel or that things were not that bad that they have no clue what the damn situation was due to they were not in it. They all knew that the dog nipped (not only once but a few times) at their grand daughter- and yet not that bad... This thing with the damn birthday dinner is just additional on top. As if they are trying to push me--- and yeah I guess they have won at that- And TO be Honest I DON"T GET IT=- the why on this- I don't get- If they don't like me they don't have to- I am not living with them, I am not joined to them- I am joined to their son. If they disapprove of us being together, that is really their issue and not ours.

In addition of them disregarding their Son's wishes- that is another action. He said he told them that he did not want the damn card and then used me as an excuse- I can understand that with people that arrogant that just do not listen- It could not be their son that would not want this thing that they find pleasure in- so let's push to blame it on the outsider.

Hankster I am trying my best to deal with this- To be honest I am not sure if it is worked out.. I had nightmears a day after this happened with past things, My emotions are out of wack with what the hell- and I am torn apart with what is right and what is wrong- Even at a point was thinking I was s h i t and that I deserve all this pain and treatment- but then pulled up and said bs on that. I tried to explain on what my issues where with this. And now after a day after I feel like a moron for doing so- It just gives them more amo to aim at me later if they choose to do so.

I am upset that my boyfriend is unable to be honest with them of this bothering him as well- Yes It bothers me more- but it bothered him as well with the whole thing due to they just did not listen.
So right now I am the only one that has show the upper hand of being honest with things.... but yet I do feel stomped on by doing it as well.

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