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May 24, 2012, 04:19 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Michigan
Posts: 6,543
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Dear Dan ~~ You JUST got out of the hospital -- you cannot say YET that therapy isn't working, because you haven't given it enough time. Therapy TAKES time -- and it usually gets worse before it gets better.  You have to "dig" thru the trash from the past before you can begin to see the sunlight. That can be painful -- but you CAN do this! You MUST do this so that you can heal. Believe me, I know cause I've done the very same thing that you're doing. I went into the hospital, and then into therapy -- and it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself.
BUT -- you HAVE to stop drinking & drugging!!! You will NEVER get well until you do. Booze is a depressant - if you keep drinking, you'll STAY depressed!! And if you keep taking sleeping pills you'll get addicted, and that's ALL you need! Plus those can be a depressant too. Do you want to continue to be depressed for the rest of your life? 
Don't even THINK about ending your life. That's a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem!!! And like you said, your family would be devastated!!! They would NEVER get over it - they would live with guilt for the rest of their lives and that's just not FAIR. They would always wonder "what else could I have done to save him?" You can't leave them with that!
Do something good for yourself, and STOP the insanity -- quit drinking and drugging, and REALLY get into therapy! Do what the therapist suggests. Get plenty of rest, eat good meals, get outside into the sunshine, take walks, do something you enjoy, i.e. a hobby. But take care of YOU. And keep posting here -- we'll listen. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee
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