Hello & Welcome, Starshine20!
If your situation permits, perhaps you could discuss the whole range of what you are experiencing with a doctor. It would be nice to rule out other possible physical causes of your symptoms.
The following screening questionnaires are not diagnostic, but may point you in useful directions and offer insight:
PsychCentral Depression Quiz
Sanity Score Quiz
Again, welcome! Please keep posting.
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.