I have a passive death wish too. I'm not sure if I'm interpreting it right or not though. Passive as in I took up smoking to give myself cancer, and have been chainsmoking for years now. It takes wayyy longer to get bad health effects from smoking than I thought. I thought I would have been dead by now from smoking all these cigs. I also gave up exercising because I thought this, in combination with the smoking, would kill me (via heart disease, cancer, some sort of cardiovascular thing, something like that). Only now (6 years since i took up smoking and stopped the exercise) am i starting to have health effects from it. I also read that if you stop smoking, your psilia and lung function slowly comes back. I am quite bummed about this revelation, since they told us at uni that it was permanent damage. Maybe new research has come out about that or something. I was hoping it would be permanent.

I would describe this as a passive death wish because I am too much of a wuss to do it the proper way. So I thought "why not pick up a few bad habits, and go out that way". A lot less scary, thats for sure!