I would like some support if possible. I am in the middle of a load of emotions but most significantly feelings of powerlessness and hopelessness. There are so many areas of my life that are unsatisfactory and I am working hard to improve these but I have realised recently that I have no positive activities that I look forward to. My main upset is that I have no friends living near me and so I am very reliant on my parents. I get on well with my parents and they are a great support but it is not the same as having friends my age.

I've decided to take some time out from therapy - very short term - in order to spend some time and energy on trying to find a bit of a balance. I think my main concern is that as my mood is very low and energy levels are in short supply I may feel the need to self harm in order to cope. I want this time out to be a positive one but I have often found that in order to move forward in different aspects of my life I have needed to self harm to get rid of/deal with my difficult emotions

I feel I have been making really hard choices not to self harm over the last 5 months and have been able to enjoy the freedoms of being cut free. I want to continue with this but I also want to have energy to do things, like meet friends, which can cause a turmoil of emotions.....what I am wondering is if perhaps I should also give myself an amnesty from pushing myself so hard to not self harm whilst I search for the balance?

What do you all think?