I'm troubled by not remembering some of the things that one of my alters did. She is extremely sexual and created quite the mess about 3 years ago. Not only did she have sex with multiple men, she videotaped it and uploaded it to the internet. This has only very recently been discovered and I was unaware of it until recently. This has been devastating to my partner. Of course, he feels extremely betrayed despite this was the actions of an alter. He has been very forgiving of the behavior, but he is still extremely in need of some of the answers of what exactly did happen. He feels that he really needs at least some details to get closure and put all of this into the past. Unfortunately, I have complete amnesia to all of it. This has really put a wedge in our relationship.

So, I've been googling around to see what might help. I tried hypnosis and had no luck. I am having no luck in remembering with my therapist either. I read about drug assisted interview. Sodium thiopental (pentothal) or sodium amobarbital (amytal) used to be used in an IV. But, now they are using Ativan or Valium in an IV. Anyway, they relax you so much and decrease your inhibitions so much that it helps in recall of supressed/repressed memories and in alters "coming out". I guess this used to be the standard way to diagnose DID or for memory recall.

My question is has anyone ever done this? And who does this? How can I find someone to do this? I know that we may have to live without every knowing how the pornographic videos came to be, but I'd be willing to try this.