So I got back from seeing my therapist a couple of hours ago. Had an AMAZING session, it was so great to see her smile as I told her about how I’m coping with my current situation. Yes it’s difficult and I’m afraid, but I’m accepting the facts of the situation, facing the reality head on and moving forward. I still have this knot in my stomach that has been there for the last 3 weeks but I’m still standing, I have taken some huge blows that recently that I would have thought would easily break me, but they didn’t and I have her to thank for being patient and caring, and giving me the tools I needed to deal with things that if you would have told me I would be able to deal with all this "stuff" a month ago I wouldn’t have believed you. Not only am I still standing I’m actually feeling OK about life.