I am hearing soft voices all day long. More like command voices which are the worst type. Telling me to hurt myself, sometimes kill myself, destroy walls (because the government hides in there and the same with everything else). I heard a voices saying "fly away" and I don't know what that means. I know the birds movements means very much to me. It is a show being put on for me, for others as well. I constantly hear laughter directed at me. I have already hurt myself in the last few days/ weeks. I want to do more. (don't worry I am NOT suicidal, just wanting to give myself brain damage). Very depressed and realistic. I am hopeless about my future and my psychologist threatened to take me to the hospital. I refuse to go. I don't want more anti psychotics since I believe I am not psychotic at all.