I always felt like I did, but I was discouraged from "looking for more things wrong with myself." Finally I have a therapist who says I probably have asperger's. He said he's going to start asking everyone if they cut the tags out of their clothes (I don't because the stub that is left is worse than the tag. I love the tissue weight tee shirts that don't have any tag, and wear them almost all the time, under anything). I can't remember all the questions on his list - maybe I should ask him for a written checklist.

Does this change anything? I'm still the same person. It helps to validate and make sense of things that I always had trouble with. A past therapist said that I couldn't possibly have asperger's and be a therapist or be married or have children. There are certainly challenges, but I'm sure that I'm not the first to have done those things anyway. I have had difficulties. I was rejected from a master's program in speech pathology because the faculty thought I was too weird and didn't have good enough social skills, and they told me to go back and get a second bachelor's degree in engineering. I never fit in or belong, and I can't seem to hang on to a job more than a year or two - people get tired of me.

Anyway, now I guess I can say that I have asperger's. That feels weird. As therapists, we are so cautious about diagnosing anything on the autistic spectrum. Over-cautious, I think.