Oddly enough I had this happen this week. Ill share the email I sent to my T yesterday. ***Trigger warning for sui***

"I always viewed suicide as a contingency plan growing up. I guess I considered my family would be upset, but it wasn't until last week and this week you really made realize something. I never knew my ups and downs really worried you, or had any affect on you until the talk we had on Monday. I guess by you telling me that, I realized how much you do care about my outcome. Maybe I'm not so worthless..? Then what you told me today, makes it so hard for me to ever consider giving into my thoughts. How could I give up on myself, when someone is so unwilling to give up on me? I would have never realized any of this if it weren't for you. As long as you never give up on me, I promise I won't give up on myself."

He replied to me...deal.

For the first time in my life I'm not seeing suicide as backup plan, and I think that's a miracle.