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Originally Posted by WikidPissah
I get this symptom frequently. When it first started I even went to the ER a couple times, it's a frightening feeling. And as you feel it your stress raises thus making the weird beating thing worse. I found progressive muscle relaxation to be helpful with it.
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Yes! When I pay attention to it, it makes me even more stressed because I'm worrying I am dying or something. So if I'm lying there trying to fall asleep, it makes me wide awake. WikidPissah, what did they say at the ER when you went?
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Originally Posted by WikidPissah
I think it is important to be able to be negative with T.
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I am usually not negative with anyone, so it is hard for me to be negative. But I was feeling so overwhemingly negative inside that it was impossible to be any other way (and I do prize authenticity). When T started off the session by asking how I was doing, I said "awful" which is totally unlike me. (If I am doing good I say that, and if not so good, I may say "oh, ok.") At one point, after we had discussed my negative stuff for a while, T changed the topic, returning to something from our last session he wanted to provide some last comments to. This was a very positive topic and I just couldn't go there with him. I told him I wished I could join him in that but I just didn't feel able to and I apologized for not being able to make the jump with him when he changed the subject. He immediately went right back with me to the negative stuff so we could keep working on that. So I appreciate his ability to stick to the negative and keep trying to help me with it. When I am around really negative people, my instinct is to back away from them so their negativity won't rub off on me, contaminate me. It must be hard for a T to not back off and be willing to sit for an hour in all that negativity with the client. Yikes!
Ok, off to my discharge!