((((Rose))))),

I have that too, and because I am struggling with PTSD, like everything else that is magnified as well.

This stems from you growing up feeling unloved or invalidated by your adoptive mother. There is a part of you that defends yourself from being judged like that by others. You are definitely a NICE and CARING person Rose. As you sort of know, you do much better with men, however there is that element there of the MAN also denying you in a way like your father is by siding or giving his loyalty to this step mother who is actually a very selfish person. It sounds to me that she is a NARCISIST Rose. And they always mess up their children.

You don't know how to trust OTHER WOMEN, there is a guardedness about you. You shy away from them NOT BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU ARE BETTER THAN THEM , but BECAUSE YOU DON'T REALLY KNOW HOW TO TRUST AND OPEN UP TO THEM. And that one that told you that she felt you think you are better and above, is misreading you. It is your body language and manerisms they are reading wrong, not your fault because this is what you FORMED because of YOUR MOTHER WHOM should have loved you, but instead was actually jealous of you and pushed you away.

Not all snakes are poisenous, but if we get bitten by one, then we tend to be fearful of all snakes, it is only human.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes