Ok. I have been totally honest about how I cannot make eye contact with T. Fact is, I can't even look at his face. I set my gaze on his shoes, or the window when I am really trying to think, and peter out syllables trying to form a coherent sentence. It's the epitome of patheticism. (i know, not a word...but you get it right?)

Anyhow...in the past couple of months, T has asked several times for a few seconds of eye contact. I turn a hefty shade of burgundy and drop my head to my knees. No, no, no, I can't, please don't. (I actually say that, but I doubt he understands my whispered mumble)

Question- has anyone overcome this horrific shame? If so, HOW?