Since I was a child I've had trouble with eye contact because of my shyness. I still don't have eye contact with people so much, but I do with my T. It was a goal of mine with my former T, and somehow I managed to do it. I wish I could tell you how but I don't know. I just did it gradually because I forced myself to.

I like my current T's eyes. It's hard to have eye contact but I feel so good when I do it, so I force myself to look directly into her eyes. I think I can do it because I trust her so much. She accepts me totally so I'm not afraid of her seeing me. I know she sees me even when I don't look into her eyes, but it's scary to SEE that she SEES, if that makes sense. But the sense of connection overcomes my fears.

Wiki, do you know what you are afraid of? Can you discuss THAT with him, while not looking? Do you know what the shame is all about?