wikid, I am so nervous to offer support because I'm afraid I will trigger someone, or say the wrong thing, etc. Please understand I am saying this with sincere caring.

Dont be afraid of what lies within your T's eyes. Many times, the things we fret over never happen. You are not a child anymore. T is not any of the adults from your past. From what I've read here, I think you (and many others) are stronger than you know.