"anger is a luxery that addicts can't enjoy...Bill W." not sure if that is Verbatim, but I believe it is close enough. I've found this to be true. If I get upset, like angry, and have zero effective coping skills, I'll drink or use or both. So to avoid that, I try to stay calm. PLus, I'm male and kinda big and fit. I can scare people, if I don't remind myself and remain calm and in control. It seems unfair, if I was thin and small I could get angry outwardly, but because I large and fit, I have to remain calm, at all times, no exception. Life on lifes terms, okay then...OK.