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Originally Posted by WikidPissah
Ok. I have been totally honest about how I cannot make eye contact with T. Fact is, I can't even look at his face. I set my gaze on his shoes, or the window when I am really trying to think, and peter out syllables trying to form a coherent sentence. It's the epitome of patheticism. (i know, not a word...but you get it right?)
Anyhow...in the past couple of months, T has asked several times for a few seconds of eye contact. I turn a hefty shade of burgundy and drop my head to my knees. No, no, no, I can't, please don't. (I actually say that, but I doubt he understands my whispered mumble)
Question- has anyone overcome this horrific shame? If so, HOW?
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Do you want to be able to make eye contact with your T? It's been a goal of mine for awhile - not just eye contact with T, but with other people too. During a long period when I was really depressed, I got so out of the habit of looking people that it's hard to bring myself to do it now.
It depends on what I'm talking about - sometimes I can make eye contact, but often I can't. It does seem like there is healing to be had in making eye contact with T and seeing that all of the things we imagine about being horrible aren't reflected in their eyes.