When I first started cutting I hid the marks. I've been cutting since I was about 13, I'm 25 now. Now I have the attitude of who cares. I don't really see cutting as a bad thing. For me, it keeps me from going off the deep end. For instance, instead of hurting other people when I'm angry I cut to calm myself down. It's just better than attacking another person. When I blow I get violent (ex. smash stuff, break stuff such as glass, furniture, etc.) When I cut I feel so clear. I know a lot of people see it as a bad thing, but I figure it keeps me out of jail.

Personally, I think if people don't like it, it's their problem. I know that's a little distorted, but I often don't care. I know it's wrong in their eyes. I found that when I was living with the shame and fear of my cutting, it only prolonged the cutting. When I started showing people and becoming proud of it, I learned that I didn't have to do it. It doesn't make sense, but what does?

Don't misunderstand me, I don't want you to cut. I just want you to know how it's been for me. I had to accept it before I could heal from it, that's all I'm trying to say.